The Truth about Hate

How recenty helping up and coming filmmakers finance their film backfired and why I'll never do it again.

Hate is a virus.

A friend of mine recently told me that his PR woman said he shouldn’t be around me. This woman doesn’t know me and doesn’t know anyone who knows me, but she “Sits with journalists” apparently and has “Heard a lot” and “I’m not nice to women”.

I’m so sick of this shit. I’ve worked with thousands and thousands and thousands of women since I was 16, only for a group of mates and their connected associates to do what they did, say what they said and even if I have to look at some past things and say, okay i’ve learned from that. I’m now supposed to be some exaggerated supervillain that even the police can’t catch?

But there it is. She’s “heard a lot” and again. That’s the point. Hate infects people.

Hate can be tangible. people can say “I hate that guy” or you may see people and think “they hate each other” but a lot of that is just anger. Those same people could be friends the next year and often are.

Hate is different.

Hate is - disliking someone or a group of people because of the colour of their skin or their sexuality or their Gender.

Hate is listening to the whispers about someone that you don’t know and believing it because it suits a narrative or you kind of want to believe it.

Hate is a professional Journalist like Sirin kale telling people - (and i’m paraphrasing) - Lets make sure we don’t talk about all the things he does for diversity. I don’t want people to feel sorry for him.

That is fucking hate and devious hate at that.

That is the virus.

Deep, imbedded, ingrained. being right without even knowing people. Just believing “facts” because you heard them or because you want to.

So let me tell you this particular story.

Last year my former business parter told me about a dynamic short film that was being Directed by a young black Directer and produced by an up and coming young female producer. I won’t name the film but the title of this post will give an indication when it’s released.

They were looking for a few thousand to close the finance and shoot and it was a nice project. My friend asked me, because he knows I have always loved to helped up and comers and have done more times than any of you know. I knew of a woman who might be interested and let her know straight away.

This is not a close friend but someone I know through other people. She’s a writer directer herself. The woman happily financed the film because like me she’s interested in helping up and coming talent. She gave them the finance needed and only asked for a credit as an Executive Producer in return which is entirely fair.

Fast forward to last week, maybe 10 months later and the producer calls the finance woman and tells her that she’s heard through the grapevine that “she knows me” and that because the finanace woman knows me, the director and this female producer no longer want the finance woman to have any credit on the movie at all and that knowing me makes them worried as they are new to the business and don’t want any controversy.

So let’s be clear this is just because someone knows me.

And these people The producer and Director. They are cowards. They are Bullies. They are sheep. They don’t know me. They are going by what they heard and are not even willing to understand nuance, think for themselves or give people they’re told not to like a chance. A chance, that those said people, even while cancelled have afforded them by finding finance for their film.

This treatment matches with last month when two actresses on a movie tried to get a mates wife fired from her job on that movie, because her husband knows me.

That’s right. two women lobbied to get another woman fired from her job because her husband knows me. I won’t name them yet.

Rest assured I’m seeing all these people treating me and people I may or may not know the way they “claimed” I was treating people, when I actually wasn’t and not only is it not cool. It’s plan wrong. but they do it because they think I’m dead, they do it because they think I will never have a voice and they do it because power corrupts.

“Nearly all men can withstand adversity, but if you want to test a (Wo)man’s character, give them power.”

— Abraham Lincoln. (with a little amendment)

Their bitterness is a manifestation of their careers not being where they want. In some cases their nepotism not taking them where they thought they had the right that it should or in the case of these short film people just Flat out thinking they are better than another human being. When really it’s a mirror to -

Their own fears and insecurities

Their own doubt and of self loathing

Their own judgement and hate of themselves which they project on to others.

They are Bullies (and although that’s what I was called, which was nonsense) I’m constantly bullied by people like them now, and to them it’s okay is it because the playground said i’m the smelly kid and everyone ran away from me so they can be as mean as they like with no consequence.

The mob (Mostly the press) bullied Caroline until she unfortunately killed herself and nobody has learned anything since them. They spoke about her and spoke about her and spoke about her until she couldn’t take it any more.

And that’s what people need to see.

In today’s world it’s not always about what people have or haven’t done. It’s about what the mob/sheep say the people in current favour say’s been done.

So now I just won’t help any up and comers at all. Why would I even bother and if I hadn’t gone through years or therapy and come out of the darkest places you could imagine I may feel that same about these people as they feel about me, without even knowing them.

Because that’s the virus. It spreads.

And that’s the truth about… HATE

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